24th Nov - Seriously jo Meri life ki villain ne kiya h jo ki Ms M T ap ho uske baad apko maaf to kabhi ni kr skta bt for now baksh diya apko, agar apne mere aage hath jodke mafi mangi hoti to may be na baksha hota bt apke baap ne mangi so koi bda hath jodke mafi mange to acha ni lgta so baksh diya..
hmare relation me bhot cases possible the
best best case : kundli match krti , parents man jate sb awesome hota. ap fr luckiest gal of earth hoti jisko m itna pyar deta jiske baad lyf me apki koi demands ni hoti , plus mere parents se pyar vo bhi sure apke parents k pyar se jada hota jo apko jada lgta. sari duniya ki khushiya lake deta
best case : koi na kundli na milti , parents man jate to bhi sb vaisa rehta
best case for u ( jo ap kr skte the nd ho bhi skta tha bt ise hi apne worst me bna diya ) - kunldi na milti , parents bhi na mante bt ap stand lete atleast try krte ki sb normal ho jaye to bhi koi issue ni tha. usme do outcome hote
a) agar ap parents ko mna lete to fr to sochlo aisa hota ki apne mjhe kharid liya and m puri lyf apke ehsaan tale dba rehta ki apne mere liye itna kiya and utna hi multiples me pyar or sb milta
b) agar parents na mante to bhi koi issue ni tha. atleast mjhe ye satisfaction thi ki agar maine apke liye apni shadi todi to atleast apne mere liye stand liya and hm fr ache frnd rehte atleast dushman ni hote kbhi . nd m puri lyf atleast apko one sided love krta jo abh bhi krta but seriously try kr rha jaldi khatam ho jaye
WORST CASE : Jo apne jaan ke bnaya.. koi stand ni plus sari harkate mere against. ab puri lyf ap pachtaoge bcoz jo pyar milna chahiye tha apko vo to kabhi ni milna. Plus roge puri lyf ye bhi m sure bcoz tit for tat. mere sath aisa krke gye to rabb ji ne apke sath bhi multiple me bura to sure krna hi kch to kr hi diya jab apke papa ne mere aage hath jodke maafi mangli beshaq apko fark na pde is se but mjhe acha ni lga ki itna bda insaan apni beti ke karan jhukh rha. . . Yaar insaan na ap bure the na m hu. but koi insaan ap jaise hote jo paise ki bhukh or ghamand k karan kisi mere jaise idiot ke sath bura krte and fr hm jaise idiot atleast bura sochte krne ka to dil manta ni bcoz dil se pyar kiya hota apki taraf dialogue baji me bolne vala nahi sirf. .
Yaar time paas hi krna tha to vaise hi krlete. sala rishta tudvake mera apne sbse bdi galti ki life ki apne and maine ki todke. seriously i hate u for this
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New End : Can write in English but vo vali feel ni aaegi so here writing this on my mother tongue Hindi
Roj vo mere aage se jati and m usko dekhta but kuch bolta ni..bcoz jo usne kiya vo to bde se bda dushman bhi na kre. Jis insaan se jitna jada pyar kro vo insaan agar aisa krde to duniya me nafrat bhi us se sbse jada hoti..pyar kabhi khatam ni hota vo h nd hmesha rehna and m chahta tha vo bhi mujse bhot jada pyar kre, but chal jada vala pyar to ni but duniya me sbse jada nafrat sure krti h.
Will tel complete story soon
For now aj date 22 Nov 15 ko uske Baap ne hath jodke mafi mangli.. and i think ye bhot h..and uske jo usne kiya uske aage ye ek choti si sja uske liye. ab mjhe kch ni sochna na kch bolna baki uske karm ki time sja dega usko..
So here is the end of My Story . Will tell you beginning any other day.. ( 16th November )
It was painful to admit that loving someone and being in love with someone are two different things. We were going to be engaged in a couple of weeks, but things changed overnight. I had a general conception that when the relationship is going on smoothly both (men and women) tend to love each other. But when there comes the testing situation, girls generally make more practical decisions (taking care of there future). Boys; however, sometimes being more emotional in decision making follow heart. That's why now a days we are in an age where we dare to say "I love you" but when the real scenario comes we withdraw from our decision, thinking of future and safer side. Here "She" had to do so.
We were together for more than a year; we had shared our dreams together. I never thought this was coming. She ditched me for my happiness, lol. She didn't know marrying her was my happiness. I was very happy and had informed my relatives and my friends. I was getting prepared for it for a month. I didn't know it would be a “NO” again. Yes “NO”,
I was fool to understand that she never wanted to marry. It was me who actually forced her in the name of love, which was never there from her side. So, it will be wrong if I say she ditched me. Perhaps, it was a good decision for her.I thought certainly we were in love. Sad, I was wrong.
I got to know that she loved herself more than she loved me (As she said, she loved me). I couldn't give her what she really wanted, and she moved on; perhaps to find another one. I guess it was right
Few days back, it was all good, we were so connected, and everything was fine. What happened later I don’t know; I guess it was harder and harder for her to connect with me. Things went weary and cynical. On the other hand, I was a fool who kept thinking that it was a phase, or a hiccup.
She gave me many unfortunate importance of the issues like uncertain or probable fights after marriage, I feel no matter how open-minded she was, she could have discussed it before entering a serious relationship. When she knew that there would be a gorge before the finish line of a race, why she had to run that race? Anyways, it was I who continuously forced her to marry me. So, I guess it was never her fault. She said it was good telling "NO" now rather after engagement or marriage.
I was in shock to hear that she is scared of me, yes me!! And I was the one who used to think she loves me. She made me realize that love is not enough to get married.
Even I gave up finally and I am ashamed the way it ended but the hardest part is that you feel so many different levels of pain and you don’t know which one to process first. The hardest part is convincing yourself that you need to break up with someone you love in the first place
After fewdays her brother asked me not to disturb her and her parents. I was in shock. He was very calm and cool as it was all normal; as if nothing had happened. He was selfishly and shamelessly talking how it was a good decision.
Now, I feel like a criminal, I could have stopped her. I feel a deep loneliness. I lost the one whom I used to text “good morning” and “good night” every single day. I keep being reminded by every small things related to her directly or indirectly. These things may be a song, photos, words said by her and many more. I keep getting an intense urge to call her and talk or to text her. It’s like reliving the break-up over and over again. But I don’t want to hear another “NO”. I don’t have courage to bear rejections by her any more. She proved me bad, I am freak, I get angry very soon, I abuse and I am full of shit.
hmare relation me bhot cases possible the
best best case : kundli match krti , parents man jate sb awesome hota. ap fr luckiest gal of earth hoti jisko m itna pyar deta jiske baad lyf me apki koi demands ni hoti , plus mere parents se pyar vo bhi sure apke parents k pyar se jada hota jo apko jada lgta. sari duniya ki khushiya lake deta
best case : koi na kundli na milti , parents man jate to bhi sb vaisa rehta
best case for u ( jo ap kr skte the nd ho bhi skta tha bt ise hi apne worst me bna diya ) - kunldi na milti , parents bhi na mante bt ap stand lete atleast try krte ki sb normal ho jaye to bhi koi issue ni tha. usme do outcome hote
a) agar ap parents ko mna lete to fr to sochlo aisa hota ki apne mjhe kharid liya and m puri lyf apke ehsaan tale dba rehta ki apne mere liye itna kiya and utna hi multiples me pyar or sb milta
b) agar parents na mante to bhi koi issue ni tha. atleast mjhe ye satisfaction thi ki agar maine apke liye apni shadi todi to atleast apne mere liye stand liya and hm fr ache frnd rehte atleast dushman ni hote kbhi . nd m puri lyf atleast apko one sided love krta jo abh bhi krta but seriously try kr rha jaldi khatam ho jaye
WORST CASE : Jo apne jaan ke bnaya.. koi stand ni plus sari harkate mere against. ab puri lyf ap pachtaoge bcoz jo pyar milna chahiye tha apko vo to kabhi ni milna. Plus roge puri lyf ye bhi m sure bcoz tit for tat. mere sath aisa krke gye to rabb ji ne apke sath bhi multiple me bura to sure krna hi kch to kr hi diya jab apke papa ne mere aage hath jodke maafi mangli beshaq apko fark na pde is se but mjhe acha ni lga ki itna bda insaan apni beti ke karan jhukh rha. . . Yaar insaan na ap bure the na m hu. but koi insaan ap jaise hote jo paise ki bhukh or ghamand k karan kisi mere jaise idiot ke sath bura krte and fr hm jaise idiot atleast bura sochte krne ka to dil manta ni bcoz dil se pyar kiya hota apki taraf dialogue baji me bolne vala nahi sirf. .
Yaar time paas hi krna tha to vaise hi krlete. sala rishta tudvake mera apne sbse bdi galti ki life ki apne and maine ki todke. seriously i hate u for this
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New End : Can write in English but vo vali feel ni aaegi so here writing this on my mother tongue Hindi
Roj vo mere aage se jati and m usko dekhta but kuch bolta ni..bcoz jo usne kiya vo to bde se bda dushman bhi na kre. Jis insaan se jitna jada pyar kro vo insaan agar aisa krde to duniya me nafrat bhi us se sbse jada hoti..pyar kabhi khatam ni hota vo h nd hmesha rehna and m chahta tha vo bhi mujse bhot jada pyar kre, but chal jada vala pyar to ni but duniya me sbse jada nafrat sure krti h.
Will tel complete story soon
For now aj date 22 Nov 15 ko uske Baap ne hath jodke mafi mangli.. and i think ye bhot h..and uske jo usne kiya uske aage ye ek choti si sja uske liye. ab mjhe kch ni sochna na kch bolna baki uske karm ki time sja dega usko..
So here is the end of My Story . Will tell you beginning any other day.. ( 16th November )
It was painful to admit that loving someone and being in love with someone are two different things. We were going to be engaged in a couple of weeks, but things changed overnight. I had a general conception that when the relationship is going on smoothly both (men and women) tend to love each other. But when there comes the testing situation, girls generally make more practical decisions (taking care of there future). Boys; however, sometimes being more emotional in decision making follow heart. That's why now a days we are in an age where we dare to say "I love you" but when the real scenario comes we withdraw from our decision, thinking of future and safer side. Here "She" had to do so.
We were together for more than a year; we had shared our dreams together. I never thought this was coming. She ditched me for my happiness, lol. She didn't know marrying her was my happiness. I was very happy and had informed my relatives and my friends. I was getting prepared for it for a month. I didn't know it would be a “NO” again. Yes “NO”,
I was fool to understand that she never wanted to marry. It was me who actually forced her in the name of love, which was never there from her side. So, it will be wrong if I say she ditched me. Perhaps, it was a good decision for her.I thought certainly we were in love. Sad, I was wrong.
I got to know that she loved herself more than she loved me (As she said, she loved me). I couldn't give her what she really wanted, and she moved on; perhaps to find another one. I guess it was right
Few days back, it was all good, we were so connected, and everything was fine. What happened later I don’t know; I guess it was harder and harder for her to connect with me. Things went weary and cynical. On the other hand, I was a fool who kept thinking that it was a phase, or a hiccup.
She gave me many unfortunate importance of the issues like uncertain or probable fights after marriage, I feel no matter how open-minded she was, she could have discussed it before entering a serious relationship. When she knew that there would be a gorge before the finish line of a race, why she had to run that race? Anyways, it was I who continuously forced her to marry me. So, I guess it was never her fault. She said it was good telling "NO" now rather after engagement or marriage.
I was in shock to hear that she is scared of me, yes me!! And I was the one who used to think she loves me. She made me realize that love is not enough to get married.
Even I gave up finally and I am ashamed the way it ended but the hardest part is that you feel so many different levels of pain and you don’t know which one to process first. The hardest part is convincing yourself that you need to break up with someone you love in the first place
After fewdays her brother asked me not to disturb her and her parents. I was in shock. He was very calm and cool as it was all normal; as if nothing had happened. He was selfishly and shamelessly talking how it was a good decision.
Now, I feel like a criminal, I could have stopped her. I feel a deep loneliness. I lost the one whom I used to text “good morning” and “good night” every single day. I keep being reminded by every small things related to her directly or indirectly. These things may be a song, photos, words said by her and many more. I keep getting an intense urge to call her and talk or to text her. It’s like reliving the break-up over and over again. But I don’t want to hear another “NO”. I don’t have courage to bear rejections by her any more. She proved me bad, I am freak, I get angry very soon, I abuse and I am full of shit.
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